Know who you are in Christ

Image
In Christ:
We are a new creation
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
 
We are created to do good works
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
 
We are made alive
1 Corinthians 15:22
For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive.
 
We are free from condemantion
Romans 8:1
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus
 
We are reconciled to God
Ephesians 2:13
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
 
We are sons/daughters of God
Galatians 3:26-27
You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ.
 
We are justified in the sight of God
Romans 3:24
Being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.
We are blessed
Ephesians 1:3
All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ.
 
We have eternal hope
2 Thessalonians 2:10
Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by His grace gave us eternal comfort and a wonderful hope.
Advertisements

My Story….A Short Version

This is a very short version of my testimony. I give God all the glory. It is only through Him and His saving grace that I am here to write and share anything. I hope this testimony can give hope to others.

Image

I was given my first beer at age one, by age three; I was looking at crime scene photos of horrific killings, decapitations and accident photos.  All of which came from my father.  My mother had been and was a prescription pain pill addict.  It was at this time that I first ran away, crossing major boulevards to get anywhere, I was 3. The police would find me and bring me home and because my father was a policeman, nothing was ever done to find out why I ran away. As I got older, my mother became more abusive both verbally and emotionally. Sometimes it would get physical. She had a Red Ball paddle and would slap me across my arms or my face, but most of the time she used her hands. She would continue to hit me, harder and harder until I would cry. My father was either not around, indifferent or badgered to stay out of it from my mother. There are years that I know my father was in the house, but I don’t remember him at all. Some things I do remember, but not much, I know that I was revolted every time he would reach over to kiss me and he would tell me jokes that were sexual in nature. He would also call me names that reflected parts of my body. I learned from my mother that I was worthless, unintelligent and in her words, “I can take you out of this world” as well as many other degrading things.  I spent my early childhood in a fantasy land where I talked to people that were not real and they would answer me back. Of course it was just me, but it was my escape. Talking to myself like this lasted well into my adult life, in fact I wasn’t able to quit this behavior until 2006. My older brother became my care taker and my hero until he turned 18 and left the house for good. At that time I had just turned 12. I had already been in Junior High since turning 10.  That was when I really began to drink. I would take my little brother into the grocery store and buy beer for me and my friends. I looked a lot older and I was never carded. When I turned 13, I lost my virginity to an older boy that I barely knew. I was searching for anyone to give me some kind of value and love. I was driving my mother’s car nightly in L.A. and would go drink and be with a boy until early morning. My mother only required a phone number from me, which I gave her and when I got home staggering in the morning, she was so out of it from her pills that she didn’t even care that I was sick from alcohol.  When I was in High School, the drinking got worse and I started smoking pot. I really didn’t like the pot, but that allowed me to be in with the cool crowd. I did have some really good friends who would take me to church and I accepted Jesus when I was 13 even though I was a mess. But going to church didn’t last very long and then I was doing things worse than before. The one thing I think I did right during that time was carry a 4.0 GPA which got me accepted into Pepperdine. I didn’t get to go because my parents fled to Arizona so that my father could escape prosecution for sexual misconduct from the police department. It was here in Arizona that I met my children’s father. I got pregnant, lost that child and then ran with him back to California only to get pregnant again. He was just as verbally abusive as my mother had been and he drank, a lot. After my divorce, I continued on a self destruct mode with men, drinking and I found coke. My life was out of control not to mention my mental health. I kept picking men that physically abused me and to escape I would do anything to stop the pain. In my late 20’s I found meth and it seemed to me at the time that this was a cure all. It took the pain away for a while. But it wasn’t long before I was trapped and slowly killing myself. One day I looked into the eyes of my kids and decided to start living for them. I quit doing meth and drinking and slowly convinced my fourth husband to stop also. Things turned around for a few years until he went back to doing coke and had an affair. After the divorce, I went back to doing meth and drinking heavily again. Both my daughters left home. One was old enough to leave, the youngest ran away.  That broke me. I lost everything, my house, my cars and my kids turned away from me. I became suicidal for the second time in my life.  I was numb, hopeless and helpless. I lived in my car that I got for $200 and moved into a drug neighborhood. I moved from drug dealer’s house to another just to have a roof over my head. I did things that I regret and all the while my mental health deteriorated. I didn’t care what happened to me and I didn’t believe anyone else cared either. My mother passed away and father wanted to put a bullet to my head if I came near him. All I wanted was for him to say ‘I love you’.  I continued to live in my car for several years. Then I even lost my car and when that happened all my belongings that I had been trying to hold on to were stolen. My son would take me in once in a while only to kick me out again. This lasted for five years.  One of the places I lived in for a about three weeks, I was laying in the dark looking up at the ceiling and I asked God if I was strong enough to go through all the hardships I was going through and the most brilliant white light cross became visible on the ceiling. This gave me hope, but I still didn’t know how to turn my life around. The last time my son kicked me out I started to look for shelters.

Imagehttp://grmtucson.com/

The Gospel Rescue Mission was about the sixth one on my list. Something made me call them first and when I called they had a bed for me. If anyone knows about the Mission, it is very hard to get into, they are always full. But God orchestrated every move I made. His hands were on my life and just because I walked away from Him, He never left me. At first I didn’t care too much for being there because of the closed iron gate and having to follow the rules. I had a tough case manager that made me do things I didn’t want to do, like going to SAMHC  (Southern Arizona Mental Health Corporation) and getting medications for my mental health issues. But slowly I began to have a relationship with God; I began to know who I was in Christ. My mental health became stabilized; I began working on my codependency issues. For the first time I was able to make friends with women, something that I was never able to do before. I forgave my parents and even blessed both of them. It was too late to do it in person with my mother, but just before my father passed away, I was able to witness to him. I completed the program at the Gospel Rescue Mission, moved into their transition house, went back to school to get a degree and began working. I found Faith Christian Fellowship which became my home church. God has restored all my family relationships, He has blessed me with a home, a car, a family and a life that is abundant. I give Him all the glory for without Him none of this would have been possible and looking back at my life; I know He was always with me. 

East from West

Image
Psalm 103:12
As far as the east is from the west,
so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
 
How far is the east from the west?  If we start out traveling in one direction going east will we eventually meet up with the west?  No!   It’s impossible.  When traveling east, no matter how hard you try; you will never get to the west.  It doesn’t matter if the world is round or flat.
 
This is what Jesus has done for us.  Through His sacrifice, He has removed our sin so far it’s as if our sin was nonexistent.
 
Isaiah 43:25 says “I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for My own sake, and remembers them no more.”
 
Such amazing compassion God in heaven has for us that sin is removed and we are justified by faith just as if we never sinned.  It’s not because we deserve it but because He loves us!

More Than Dynamite!!!

Image

Dunamis Power
Jesus upon completion of the cross was given
‘the name above all names’. Phil 2:9
And with that name came power.
Dunamis power!
Our word dynamite comes from this word.
Dynamite is a high explosive with the ability to blow things up.
It is very powerful stuff.
Strong’s Greek Concordance describes Dunamis as
“might, power, marvelous works”. 
It is a physical power, force, might, ability, and energy.
In other words, Dunamis means a miraculous power,
might and strength that we have to use through Christ. 
When times get tough, we have Dunamis power to do more
than we thought or could possibly conceive.
 
No one can stand against us! 

Faith Looks Beyond!

 
Faith looks beyond this passing life with hope for a life everlasting.
Faith is not a vague feeling, but a certainty.
Through faith, we can be certain of eternity by Christ’s completed work on the cross.   John 19:30
 
Hebrews 11:1 AMP
Now faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].
 
Jesus had an objective on the cross which He completed. 
 
To forever pay for our sins and to have fellowship with Him for eternity!

A Shining Light

Be a shining light in a dark world!

Matthew 5:14-16 NKJV

14 “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

Jesus was speaking to 1st century people when he delivered the Sermon on the Mount, however, what He said is still true today.

How we live effects the people around us.

As we go about our daily lives, let the light of God shine through you.

Be a blessing to others !

2 Corinthians 4:6 NKJV

For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

Light swallows up darkness!